I have been trying to spend more time slowing down and making my life less complicated overall. Going through the list of "have-to/gotta's" and paring it down to only the things that really make a positive impact for myself and my family. Taking care of me and making time for myself is a hard one so I thought adding meditation back into my day would help. Not sure it is working.
So I bought a book on meditation 4 years ago and I have yet to get past the 2nd chapter. To be honest, it is "technically" the 1st chapter but I DID read the intro so I am calling the 1st chapter the 2nd chapter so that I seem less pathetic. Anyway...
Quiet room: check. (6am: Bob gone to work, boys still asleep) Close your eyes, focus your attention about 2 or 3" in front of your 3rd eye: Umm...okay...check.
Now, breathe deeply, clear your mind. *sigh* I can hear the furnace. Stop! Focus...block out the hum of the furnace, breathe in, exhale. Shoot, I just heard one of the boys cough so they will be up soon, better hurry and get this meditation thing done! Focus!
Clear. Your. Mind. Breathe. Okay, here we go, I can totally do this. I'm breathing, I am focusing my attention in front of m 3rd eye... What is a 3rd eye anyway? That's probably covered in chapter 2, I mean 3! I think my forehead is getting hot right where that 3rd eye is supposed to be.
Seriously, FOCUS! None of this matters! Relax, take some time for you! Now, breathe...
Success! I did it! For like an hour! *peek at clock* 1 minute? Really?! Ugh!
I have an itch. I have to pee. Did we take the garbage to the street?
Not quitting! Shake out the wiggles, center, focus. "Mom, I just peed in my bed and stepped in cat puke and I think Robby is throwing up".
Right.
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